My Big Defining Moment

I did it. I made the big move. On Thursday April 18th, I purchased my plane ticket to Uganda to leave in less than a month. Let's just let that sink in a moment.

What?!

A plane ticket. To go across water. To a hot land filled with disgusting mosquitoes. Aiyiyi!

My best friend, Katie, accompanied me during this moment. I was so tense I couldn't even finish the clicking and typing required! I told her what needed to be filled in and before you know it, I heard the woman say,

"uh oh... I think I just booked your plane ticket..."

Out came a big ole shrieky "WHAT?!?!" out of my mouth.

Freaking out, Katie apologized. This was supposed to be my big defining moment. I wasn't really that upset. Surprised, yes. But not upset. The drama didn't last very long. I expected to get all hot and anxious. Instead, I was super calm and chill about everything. My friend pressing the button. Buying the plane ticket. Flying to another country. Making the expensive mind boggling commitment. My dreams actually becoming reality.

Now that I think about it, I haven't had one ounce of peace the entire time I said I would go. Fear had overtaken me. There was no room for excitement. Since Katie clicked that button though, I have felt so much peace about it. Excitement is finally trickling it's way into my life. I can finally breathe again.

I'm still not sure why it took me to buy the plane ticket for peace to come. Maybe it was the final commitment; the plan becoming action. Maybe it was simply just a God thing. Maybe, I'll never know. I do know that though Katie thinks she stole my defining moment, she did nothing of the sort. This is the moment peace began. Though I was tense, it released.

I am going to say it again, folks. I'm going. To Africa. To Uganda. To hang out with children that need love. Children that need parents but don't have them. I am going to Uganda to try and love children as well as Jesus loves me. This is an adventure I have countless times asked for, countless times regretted asking for, but countless times never been more sure of than any thing else in this world. I am making myself vulnerable, allowing Jesus's strength to shine through my weakness, and I AM GOING TO UGANDA.

That's all folks.